As I sit in front of the computer, the clock nearly reaching midnight, I can't help but not want to go to bed. I know that I should go to sleep, so that I can start the new day fresh and alive, ready to tackle whatever lies ahead. But that's exactly why I don't want to go to sleep. The school term is ending and soon it'll be the holidays and yet there is a part of me that's not entirely excited about it. I mean, don't get me wrong, I would rather have the holidays that stay at school working. But I don't feel as excited as I normally do, despite dreaming about all the wonderful things that I could do in holidays.
I'm honestly very very tired. These past few days, I have done nothing but take naps only to wake up feeling grouchy and still very very tired. Don't you just hate that feeling you get after having a nap and having to wake up and do stuff when all you want to do is stay in bed and sleep more?
I went out to see the Christmas lights with my sisters tonight. It was lovely as usual. But it didn't give me the same satisfaction and delight of the joys of Christmas like it usually does. I'm very strange actually. There have been times when I've got so hyped up about Christmas, getting into the Christmas spirit as I listened to Christmas songs. And yet, there have also been times when I've felt absolutely nothing. It's like hot and cold.
I dunno what's wrong with me. But one things for sure: I'm truly looking forward to days where I can sleep in without having to be woken up by an alarm; Lazying around the house, not having to worry about work or feel guilty about procrastinating; and hanging out with my family and friends, enjoying each other's company and sharing happy and memorable moments.
There is also one thing that I am sure dreading: where I am going to get all the money to supply all the outings that I wish I could go to!?
Haha...hopefully when holidays hit, I shall be back to my cheerful and happy self.
For now...I shall have to go to sleep :(
~Aurora
Friday, December 10, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
Officially began...
Hello hello!
Today officially marks the start of examinations! First off: Maths!
Now, I wasn't too worried about this one because I like maths and more so because it doesn't really count coz I am doing 4 unit and this is only for the 4 unit people who might drop down, and that would definitely not be me.
But it's sad, coz it marks the start of the exams. Tomorrow's exam is English and I am absolutely terrified because as you all know from my previous post, I haven't exactly been doing as well as I would like in English. Plus, the uncertainty of what the questions would be and what the stimulus we were given is going to be used for is really killing me! I can't even write a proper feature article for heaven's sake! I really really hope it's not a feature article!!
Anyways, to look on the positive side, the start of exams also means that I am one step closer to the end of exams! Optimistic isn't it? Haha, but it's true. And I cannot wait till it is over so I can devotedly focus on Christmas and preparing all the presents and start writing all the Christmas cards!! I'm a busy busy bee :D
I should probably go now, since I haven't exactly done any studying for english. I have been studying everything but english which is not exactly good considering my english exam IS tomorrow. Haha..okay
I shall post soon :):)
Once again, good luck!
~Aurora
Today officially marks the start of examinations! First off: Maths!
Now, I wasn't too worried about this one because I like maths and more so because it doesn't really count coz I am doing 4 unit and this is only for the 4 unit people who might drop down, and that would definitely not be me.
But it's sad, coz it marks the start of the exams. Tomorrow's exam is English and I am absolutely terrified because as you all know from my previous post, I haven't exactly been doing as well as I would like in English. Plus, the uncertainty of what the questions would be and what the stimulus we were given is going to be used for is really killing me! I can't even write a proper feature article for heaven's sake! I really really hope it's not a feature article!!
Anyways, to look on the positive side, the start of exams also means that I am one step closer to the end of exams! Optimistic isn't it? Haha, but it's true. And I cannot wait till it is over so I can devotedly focus on Christmas and preparing all the presents and start writing all the Christmas cards!! I'm a busy busy bee :D
I should probably go now, since I haven't exactly done any studying for english. I have been studying everything but english which is not exactly good considering my english exam IS tomorrow. Haha..okay
I shall post soon :):)
Once again, good luck!
~Aurora
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Update #3
Hello hello!
This probably doesn't really mean much but...
This is my 100th post!
Haha...I can't believe I've finally reached it. But hey, this doesn't really mean I'll be posting anything special in this post. It'll just be me rambling on about the discontents of my life. Keke..sorry if I got your hopes up ;)
So...my exams are coming up. Of course, I am absolutely petrified. Thinking about this past 2 weeks, staying after school to study. You would think I got a lot done but that is totally not the case. It was more of a maths session more than anything else and apart from a pretty effective business session one time, I have done nothing else. And it frustrates me to no end because I have wasted all this time and I've done practically nothing.
This time round, the exams are not like the ones I had previously done. These exams are the first ones that really count towards my HSC, towards my future and that really really scares the wits out of me.
Yesterday night, while laying in bed listening to some sad piano music (yes, I know it probably sounds very emo, but face it, that's my life :P), I started to think of what will happen to me in these exams. I really needed to kick myself in the ass for being so lazy all this time when I could've been doing some very productive things but I also knew that that would had no effect on me whatsoever and there was really no point in berating myself over something that I could not go back and fix. So instead, I made a vow to myself that I must start studying from the next day, which is today. And no, just because I am here right now writing a post, it does not mean that I have already given up on that vow. I will stick to it!
Too many times, I have made promises to myself that I never seem to be able to keep and time and time again I feel such disappointment with myself. This time, those feeling will not occur because I plan to keep my vow no matter what.
It was also yesterday and, actually, the past few weeks that I realised how important believing yourself really is. It is only through that strong belief that you have in yourself that you are able to gather up the confidence and thus, do well. Low self-esteem can really affect a person. And I know that everyone is probably aware of that, but to me, I realised just how big an impact one's self confidence can be.
Knowing me, you all should know that I have very bad self-esteem. I was recently talking to me friend as we were walking back from a study session and I was telling her about my low self-esteem.
I tend to be very harsh on myself, always setting really high goals that I must achieve. And while most of them time I don't achieve them, there are actually times that I do. And sometimes I really surprise myself at my ability to attain high results. And maybe it's because it's too surprising, but I overlook those excellent results and instead, I focus on the bad ones and just look down on myself. I guess, I can't really accept that I am smart no matter how many times people tell me I am and no matter how good my results are. Because tattooed to my heart, my mind are the words:
You are not smart
No matter how many times I prove to myself I can't seem to get rid of that label. And even though I know that I am doing that to myself, I still can't stop. And I'm trying. I really am. I do what to believe what everyone else sees in me, no matter how impossible it seems to me.
My tutor said that I just need the confidence in myself, to trust myself that I can answer the questions, that I am good at english. And I realised how true that is. These past few weeks, my confidence in my english has really gone down to a low, even lower that before, and it has really shown in terms of my marks. I need to believe in myself. Especially since my exams are coming up really soon. If there was a time that I really needed to look myself in the mirror and tell myself to snap out of it, it would be now.
I'm going to do it. No matter how long it takes, at the end of the battle, the winner of this internal battle of mine will definitely be the positive side. I want that confidence. No, I need that confidence and I need it now and I'm gonna fight until I get it.
So yeah, I was gonna talk about something else (which I have already forgotten), but I'm sure what I have already written is quite enough for one day. It's a lot to take in.
I wish everyone the best of luck for the up coming exams if you have any that is. And for all those people who have the same self esteem problems as me, I hope that we can all fight this internal battle of ours and come out victorious.
Fighting!
~Aurora
This probably doesn't really mean much but...
This is my 100th post!
Haha...I can't believe I've finally reached it. But hey, this doesn't really mean I'll be posting anything special in this post. It'll just be me rambling on about the discontents of my life. Keke..sorry if I got your hopes up ;)
So...my exams are coming up. Of course, I am absolutely petrified. Thinking about this past 2 weeks, staying after school to study. You would think I got a lot done but that is totally not the case. It was more of a maths session more than anything else and apart from a pretty effective business session one time, I have done nothing else. And it frustrates me to no end because I have wasted all this time and I've done practically nothing.
This time round, the exams are not like the ones I had previously done. These exams are the first ones that really count towards my HSC, towards my future and that really really scares the wits out of me.
Yesterday night, while laying in bed listening to some sad piano music (yes, I know it probably sounds very emo, but face it, that's my life :P), I started to think of what will happen to me in these exams. I really needed to kick myself in the ass for being so lazy all this time when I could've been doing some very productive things but I also knew that that would had no effect on me whatsoever and there was really no point in berating myself over something that I could not go back and fix. So instead, I made a vow to myself that I must start studying from the next day, which is today. And no, just because I am here right now writing a post, it does not mean that I have already given up on that vow. I will stick to it!
Too many times, I have made promises to myself that I never seem to be able to keep and time and time again I feel such disappointment with myself. This time, those feeling will not occur because I plan to keep my vow no matter what.
It was also yesterday and, actually, the past few weeks that I realised how important believing yourself really is. It is only through that strong belief that you have in yourself that you are able to gather up the confidence and thus, do well. Low self-esteem can really affect a person. And I know that everyone is probably aware of that, but to me, I realised just how big an impact one's self confidence can be.
Knowing me, you all should know that I have very bad self-esteem. I was recently talking to me friend as we were walking back from a study session and I was telling her about my low self-esteem.
I tend to be very harsh on myself, always setting really high goals that I must achieve. And while most of them time I don't achieve them, there are actually times that I do. And sometimes I really surprise myself at my ability to attain high results. And maybe it's because it's too surprising, but I overlook those excellent results and instead, I focus on the bad ones and just look down on myself. I guess, I can't really accept that I am smart no matter how many times people tell me I am and no matter how good my results are. Because tattooed to my heart, my mind are the words:
You are not smart
No matter how many times I prove to myself I can't seem to get rid of that label. And even though I know that I am doing that to myself, I still can't stop. And I'm trying. I really am. I do what to believe what everyone else sees in me, no matter how impossible it seems to me.
My tutor said that I just need the confidence in myself, to trust myself that I can answer the questions, that I am good at english. And I realised how true that is. These past few weeks, my confidence in my english has really gone down to a low, even lower that before, and it has really shown in terms of my marks. I need to believe in myself. Especially since my exams are coming up really soon. If there was a time that I really needed to look myself in the mirror and tell myself to snap out of it, it would be now.
I'm going to do it. No matter how long it takes, at the end of the battle, the winner of this internal battle of mine will definitely be the positive side. I want that confidence. No, I need that confidence and I need it now and I'm gonna fight until I get it.
So yeah, I was gonna talk about something else (which I have already forgotten), but I'm sure what I have already written is quite enough for one day. It's a lot to take in.
I wish everyone the best of luck for the up coming exams if you have any that is. And for all those people who have the same self esteem problems as me, I hope that we can all fight this internal battle of ours and come out victorious.
Fighting!
~Aurora
Friday, November 19, 2010
New blog!
Yes, you read right, I am starting a new blog! Of course, this does not mean that I am going to ditch this one but I've been thinking recently about this idea for a blog and I decided to go with it.
The link to my new blog is at the bottom of this post. Basically my new blog is a compilation of quotes created by ME! All of which are somehow linked to the things which I have learnt from school. I know that it sounds nerdy, but you can really learn a lot about life from some of the things you learn at school whether it is directly related to life or not.
I can't promise that I'll post one everyday but I'll try to keep it at a regular pace, or whenever I find something worth posting down. So you'll probably find that I'll be posting more often on the new blog than I am on this one. But no fear, all my personal, emotional and thoughtful things will still go in this blog :)
So yeah, go check out the new blog...although it looks rather empty since I just started it.
Alright, time to go.
~Aurora
Link to new blog :)
http://quotes-to-you.blogspot.com/
The link to my new blog is at the bottom of this post. Basically my new blog is a compilation of quotes created by ME! All of which are somehow linked to the things which I have learnt from school. I know that it sounds nerdy, but you can really learn a lot about life from some of the things you learn at school whether it is directly related to life or not.
I can't promise that I'll post one everyday but I'll try to keep it at a regular pace, or whenever I find something worth posting down. So you'll probably find that I'll be posting more often on the new blog than I am on this one. But no fear, all my personal, emotional and thoughtful things will still go in this blog :)
So yeah, go check out the new blog...although it looks rather empty since I just started it.
Alright, time to go.
~Aurora
Link to new blog :)
http://quotes-to-you.blogspot.com/
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Update #2
Yo!
I've suddenly got the urge to post something (cough *procrastinating* cough) Anyways. I thought I might give another little update on life.
Well, it's still horrible as ever. Tonnes of homework and not enough time. And exams are coming up! I'm sick and tired to working, never having a single time to myself. I know it's slightly my fault for leaving everything till the last minute and doing unnecessary things when I do have time to myself but still. I'm finding it extremely hard to cope and it's only just the beginning. I always try to brush my worries aside, telling myself that it'll be alright. And I try my best to be cheerful at school, even if it's for my friends' sakes because they are all worrying themselves without having to bear my troubles and worries as well. But it's getting really hard to stay happy when everything just keeps piling up on me. *I was going to make some kind of analogy here, but I couldn't think of a good one :P*
Also, today has been exactly one year since my grandmother had been buried. I know that it's not the actual day that she passed away, but the 11/11 really hits a nerve with me. When we had to observe a minutes silence at 11 at school today, I suddenly started to think of her. I nearly started to cry but I held it in because it would've been a little awkward.
So yeah, apart from worrying about school and everything, there isn't much to day. Besides, what else is there in my life right now apart from work? That's right, nothing. That just makes it all the more depressing.
Anyways, I better go and do some work now. Gotta do something productive.
~Aurora
I've suddenly got the urge to post something (cough *procrastinating* cough) Anyways. I thought I might give another little update on life.
Well, it's still horrible as ever. Tonnes of homework and not enough time. And exams are coming up! I'm sick and tired to working, never having a single time to myself. I know it's slightly my fault for leaving everything till the last minute and doing unnecessary things when I do have time to myself but still. I'm finding it extremely hard to cope and it's only just the beginning. I always try to brush my worries aside, telling myself that it'll be alright. And I try my best to be cheerful at school, even if it's for my friends' sakes because they are all worrying themselves without having to bear my troubles and worries as well. But it's getting really hard to stay happy when everything just keeps piling up on me. *I was going to make some kind of analogy here, but I couldn't think of a good one :P*
Also, today has been exactly one year since my grandmother had been buried. I know that it's not the actual day that she passed away, but the 11/11 really hits a nerve with me. When we had to observe a minutes silence at 11 at school today, I suddenly started to think of her. I nearly started to cry but I held it in because it would've been a little awkward.
So yeah, apart from worrying about school and everything, there isn't much to day. Besides, what else is there in my life right now apart from work? That's right, nothing. That just makes it all the more depressing.
Anyways, I better go and do some work now. Gotta do something productive.
~Aurora
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Update #1
Heya!
I decided I'd give little updates of my life every now and then just to give you guys an update on what's been going on in my life.
So...apart from the loads of work that I have to do, life has been pretty good. Laughing with my group at lunch times, being able to have fun, I can't seem to remember the last time I've laughed so much. I swear, I've laughed more times this past week than I have for a very long time. I'm glad those days are back, to be able to just forget everything and just enjoy my time with my friends laughing over trival things is really something that I love.
Also, being able to hang around people other than my group of friends, also laughing with them is a joy to me. I really appreciate and feel in debt to all the people who have made my school life so fun and happy, making me forget all the work, the tests, all the stress that comes with school. They bring the best out of me...and sometimes the naughty side :P.
Like in my double free period today. I was sitting with a bunch of friends (Susan, Joycelyn, Christy, Lina and Ling). And at first I was doing my work, but then Joycelyn who was sitting next to me asked me a maths question and we spent quite a while trying to figure it out. By the time we figured it out, I was in no mood to do any more of my maths tutoring homework and decided to draw Snoppy, which I promised last week I would draw for Susan. To bug Joycelyn too, I challenged her to draw Snoppy as well, claiming it was hard to draw. She took the challenge, saying it wasn't hard at all. I ended up drawing a very demented Snoppy (I told her it was hard!) and we ended up cracking up very hard just looking at my picture. Hehe. I then proceeded to joke with her, writing her name under the drawing, to pretend that it was Joycelyn who drew it. She, of course, tried to stop me by using my biggest weakness: my ticklish~ness. I ended up running around the table, trying to write down her name while she chased me. Hehe..I ended up writing both of our names. I still claim that my picture was unique, coz it created so much laughter :)
But yeah, times like those just make me smile in memory of it. Not to mention I can't help laughing at something funny at lunch and recess with my group of friends. They never cease to amuse me :) In a good way, that is.
But...I had a slight problem. There is this girl called Lina who I have wanted to befriend since the start of this year, coz she came at the start of this year as a new student. But till now, I still have not been able to befriend her. I have continuously bugged my friends about it, but to no avail. It seems as if I can never befriend her. And I often feel really bad because I know all of her friends and so when I am around her group, I tend to ignore her. I worry that she might think I hate her. Sigh...I wish I was more outgoing.
Other than that, life has been pretty good.
Aiya, I better go to sleep now. I'm gonna be a panda tomorrow! Hehe..
Night night lovely~s
~Aurora
I decided I'd give little updates of my life every now and then just to give you guys an update on what's been going on in my life.
So...apart from the loads of work that I have to do, life has been pretty good. Laughing with my group at lunch times, being able to have fun, I can't seem to remember the last time I've laughed so much. I swear, I've laughed more times this past week than I have for a very long time. I'm glad those days are back, to be able to just forget everything and just enjoy my time with my friends laughing over trival things is really something that I love.
Also, being able to hang around people other than my group of friends, also laughing with them is a joy to me. I really appreciate and feel in debt to all the people who have made my school life so fun and happy, making me forget all the work, the tests, all the stress that comes with school. They bring the best out of me...and sometimes the naughty side :P.
Like in my double free period today. I was sitting with a bunch of friends (Susan, Joycelyn, Christy, Lina and Ling). And at first I was doing my work, but then Joycelyn who was sitting next to me asked me a maths question and we spent quite a while trying to figure it out. By the time we figured it out, I was in no mood to do any more of my maths tutoring homework and decided to draw Snoppy, which I promised last week I would draw for Susan. To bug Joycelyn too, I challenged her to draw Snoppy as well, claiming it was hard to draw. She took the challenge, saying it wasn't hard at all. I ended up drawing a very demented Snoppy (I told her it was hard!) and we ended up cracking up very hard just looking at my picture. Hehe. I then proceeded to joke with her, writing her name under the drawing, to pretend that it was Joycelyn who drew it. She, of course, tried to stop me by using my biggest weakness: my ticklish~ness. I ended up running around the table, trying to write down her name while she chased me. Hehe..I ended up writing both of our names. I still claim that my picture was unique, coz it created so much laughter :)
But yeah, times like those just make me smile in memory of it. Not to mention I can't help laughing at something funny at lunch and recess with my group of friends. They never cease to amuse me :) In a good way, that is.
But...I had a slight problem. There is this girl called Lina who I have wanted to befriend since the start of this year, coz she came at the start of this year as a new student. But till now, I still have not been able to befriend her. I have continuously bugged my friends about it, but to no avail. It seems as if I can never befriend her. And I often feel really bad because I know all of her friends and so when I am around her group, I tend to ignore her. I worry that she might think I hate her. Sigh...I wish I was more outgoing.
Other than that, life has been pretty good.
Aiya, I better go to sleep now. I'm gonna be a panda tomorrow! Hehe..
Night night lovely~s
~Aurora
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Dilemma: English
Hey guys,
I just got back from english tutor this morning. So you are probably wondering what is the meaning behind the title. Don't worry, I'll get to that. But first I should probably give a little background information so that you guys can get a better understanding.
I am no fan of english. That much is true. I find that english is not very straightforward and the fact that there can be more than one answer to any question just throws me off my course. That's exactly why I like maths because most of the time there is only one answer to the question, but that's besides the point.
Anyways, recently, I'd handed in my school exam to my tutor Helen for her to look over it and give me feedback because I didn't do as well as I had expected. I had also handed an essay which I had to do for tutor. Well, I got it back today, as well as some feedback.
She said that I can really write. She's notice that when I like a question and can understand it, I am "on fire" (her words not mine). I can write some of the best responses. But then there are times when I don't like the question and she finds that I don't write as well. And she can't seem to understand that. She says I can write some of the best introductions and my first paragraph is brilliant, but then I start to lose steam or run out of time and I get lazy and my expression gets sloppy and I start to deteriorate. I know exactly what she means, she completely nailed my problem.
She also mentioned my slight problem for reiterating things. And I must admit that I do it.
She told me that I need to have confidence in what I do, to believe that I have discussed a point thoroughly enough and to move on. She said I could give my oldest sister Belinda, who was one of her best students, a run for her money. Which I find absolutely absurd!
She asked me what I thought my problem was and I told her straight "I don't find that I am good at english". She just scoffed.
And here lies my dilemma. She told me that I have to believe in myself, believe in my writing. But how can I when I really do think that I am not good at english? I know my expression is sloppy but I don't know how I can fix it. I do really well in tutor, I get really good marks for my homework and for tests that she sets us, but I always feel like she must've made a mistakes, must've read something entirely different because I believe that the work I do is not as good, not as deserving for the marks that she gives me. Even at school, I do and hand stuff in class and my english teacher praises me for my work. But when I look at it myself, I get really confused because I see an entirely different paper than what they think is there. And the fact that my marks in my exams at school aren't exactly the best serves to prove my point. And I begin to get so confused.
I just...I really believe that I am not good at english. But everyone else thinks otherwise.
I really need to gain some confidence in my english don't I? Obviously my lack of confidence in my english is not helping my situation. But I can't help but think that way because all my life I have had this idea, this opinion of myself, of my english as being really bad. Something that I can't seem to fix.
And it seems to all boil down to my confidence, or should i say, my lack of self esteem. I wish I could be as confident as some of the other people out there. But I'm not and I don't know how to. I obviously need to, in order to improve my english because I really do wanna do well.
So what do you guys think? Any advice? Thoughts? Opinions? And ideas because I really need some advice.
~Aurora
I just got back from english tutor this morning. So you are probably wondering what is the meaning behind the title. Don't worry, I'll get to that. But first I should probably give a little background information so that you guys can get a better understanding.
I am no fan of english. That much is true. I find that english is not very straightforward and the fact that there can be more than one answer to any question just throws me off my course. That's exactly why I like maths because most of the time there is only one answer to the question, but that's besides the point.
Anyways, recently, I'd handed in my school exam to my tutor Helen for her to look over it and give me feedback because I didn't do as well as I had expected. I had also handed an essay which I had to do for tutor. Well, I got it back today, as well as some feedback.
She said that I can really write. She's notice that when I like a question and can understand it, I am "on fire" (her words not mine). I can write some of the best responses. But then there are times when I don't like the question and she finds that I don't write as well. And she can't seem to understand that. She says I can write some of the best introductions and my first paragraph is brilliant, but then I start to lose steam or run out of time and I get lazy and my expression gets sloppy and I start to deteriorate. I know exactly what she means, she completely nailed my problem.
She also mentioned my slight problem for reiterating things. And I must admit that I do it.
She told me that I need to have confidence in what I do, to believe that I have discussed a point thoroughly enough and to move on. She said I could give my oldest sister Belinda, who was one of her best students, a run for her money. Which I find absolutely absurd!
She asked me what I thought my problem was and I told her straight "I don't find that I am good at english". She just scoffed.
And here lies my dilemma. She told me that I have to believe in myself, believe in my writing. But how can I when I really do think that I am not good at english? I know my expression is sloppy but I don't know how I can fix it. I do really well in tutor, I get really good marks for my homework and for tests that she sets us, but I always feel like she must've made a mistakes, must've read something entirely different because I believe that the work I do is not as good, not as deserving for the marks that she gives me. Even at school, I do and hand stuff in class and my english teacher praises me for my work. But when I look at it myself, I get really confused because I see an entirely different paper than what they think is there. And the fact that my marks in my exams at school aren't exactly the best serves to prove my point. And I begin to get so confused.
I just...I really believe that I am not good at english. But everyone else thinks otherwise.
I really need to gain some confidence in my english don't I? Obviously my lack of confidence in my english is not helping my situation. But I can't help but think that way because all my life I have had this idea, this opinion of myself, of my english as being really bad. Something that I can't seem to fix.
And it seems to all boil down to my confidence, or should i say, my lack of self esteem. I wish I could be as confident as some of the other people out there. But I'm not and I don't know how to. I obviously need to, in order to improve my english because I really do wanna do well.
So what do you guys think? Any advice? Thoughts? Opinions? And ideas because I really need some advice.
~Aurora
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Take a picture
Some of the best pictures are taken by normal people with normal cameras. You don't have to have a top photographer, with a hot shot camera to take beautiful photos. It comes to from the soul.
The ones below are some of my own shots. They aren't anything special but yeah..
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Suffocating
Yes, you heard right. Suffocating. That is how I am feeling right now. I just completed 4 maths exercises. Quite a feat don't you thing? But rather than feel joyous and satisfied, I feel...it's hard to explain. I'm trying to get the right words. I feel downtrodden? confused? unsatisfied? I just...you know how after you complete a small part of your goal, you would feel like your shoulders are a little lighter because some of the load has been taken off? Well, rather than that, the load just feels the same, still daunting and weighing me down. The homework I just completed can be compared to a feather which has been lifted off my should, as opposed to the tonne of bricks still resting on it. Yep, it does come down to nothing.
I just. I don't know how to handle all the stuff that is being thrown at me. I may have finished my maths homework, but it's only just the beginning. I still have to study for my economics quiz that's tomorrow, write notes for economics, do my tutoring and a whole heap of other stuff. The load just never seems to end.
I said that I would definitely take some time, every now and then, to have a little breather. Because, without it, I think I would go insane. But I just don't seem to have the time.
As cliche as it sounds, there seems to be something weighing down on my heart and it hurts. I want to be carefree, I wanna actually be able to take all of this under my stride and still be able to keep smiling and have fun. But it really just seems so impossible.
I look at my sister who is currently doing her HSC and I look at myself. I can't help but compare. She's so carefree, albeit, slightly crazy in the head (side effects of the HSC) but she doesn't seem stressed at all. And then I compare that to me, who is stressed as hell, just doing HOMEWORK! I mean, how does that even make sense? It seems like I'm the one doing the HSC, not my sister.
If I wanted to use another analogy to describe my situation, it would probably be the fact that I'm running a never ending marathon. Everytime I think I see the finish line (which in this case would symbolise my freedom and my HW-freeness), I encounter another obstacle and the goal just seems to extend that much further away from me.
I wish I could stop complaining all the time on this blog and actually post up some happy stuff. But it just doesn't seem to happening any time soon.
I wish you guys all the best of luck in whatever you guys are doing.
~Aurora
I just. I don't know how to handle all the stuff that is being thrown at me. I may have finished my maths homework, but it's only just the beginning. I still have to study for my economics quiz that's tomorrow, write notes for economics, do my tutoring and a whole heap of other stuff. The load just never seems to end.
I said that I would definitely take some time, every now and then, to have a little breather. Because, without it, I think I would go insane. But I just don't seem to have the time.
As cliche as it sounds, there seems to be something weighing down on my heart and it hurts. I want to be carefree, I wanna actually be able to take all of this under my stride and still be able to keep smiling and have fun. But it really just seems so impossible.
I look at my sister who is currently doing her HSC and I look at myself. I can't help but compare. She's so carefree, albeit, slightly crazy in the head (side effects of the HSC) but she doesn't seem stressed at all. And then I compare that to me, who is stressed as hell, just doing HOMEWORK! I mean, how does that even make sense? It seems like I'm the one doing the HSC, not my sister.
If I wanted to use another analogy to describe my situation, it would probably be the fact that I'm running a never ending marathon. Everytime I think I see the finish line (which in this case would symbolise my freedom and my HW-freeness), I encounter another obstacle and the goal just seems to extend that much further away from me.
I wish I could stop complaining all the time on this blog and actually post up some happy stuff. But it just doesn't seem to happening any time soon.
I wish you guys all the best of luck in whatever you guys are doing.
~Aurora
Monday, October 25, 2010
Victoria
Heya,
I figured I might as well post up some pictures so you could get an idea of how adorable she is. I haven't taken any pictures of her recently so she looks a little different from the ones below. The first one was from when she was younger. The second one should be more recent.
She's just adorable isn't she?
I love you for who you are
Hello :)
I decided to do another post because I'm happy someone actually enjoys reading them :D
Now, I don't think I've mentioned it in my blog before, but I have an adorable little baby cousin called Victoria who is around 2 to 3 years old. She is just adorable and has lovely big puppy eyes that you can never say no to. She's quite small for her age but she is absolutely gorgeous. You would just coo if you saw her.
I might post a picture of her later on...
Anyways, although quite young, she has been having some health issues. Having high fevers, i think even a seizure at one stage, it hasn't exactly been a good childhood so far. Recently, there has been some problems with her throat. I don't know the exact details, but I think there is some kind of lump that is in her throat. I saw her yesterday, and because of that lump, the sound of her coughing is raspy and it sounds like there is some phlegm in her throat. She'd actually gone to hospital because of that reason a while ago. Her tongue was all swollen and it was just unbearable to watch this tiny little baby on one of the big hospital beds, an IV in her arm. It just hurt my heart.
She's out of hospital already, but the problem is still there. I overheard yesterday that my auntie has booked for an operation to get rid of the lump soon, so that will be good. Although, I also heard there could be some side effects.
I also overheard yesterday that she might have slight autism. At the age of around 2 or 3, babies are usually able to talk a little, even if it's to sprout out nonsense that nobody but themselves and other babies can somehow understand. Yet, our little Victoria can not speak yet. She can only say "wee" over and over. After hearing that she had slight autism, I started to think over the habits that Victoria possessed.
Now, I'm no expert on autism, I've never research it or anything. But I have noticed that whenever Victoria came over to my house. She would love to go up the stairs. That's normal. Babies get fascinated by stairs. But, the thing with her is, she goes up the steps. Stops for a bit and then goes straight back down and then repeats the process all over again. She would run around the house, then stop at the stairs and go up again. It's just, she loves to repeat whatever she does, the same process. I noticed that yesterday as well. I was playing with her and she would do the same things over and over again. I'd let her walk, she would walk down the corridor, into the toilet and then touch the toilet. In the corridor, she would hold my hand, then crouch down and pull me down with her. Then she would stand up and pull me up as well. And then the process starts all over again.
When you hold her in your arms, she would not be able to stay still. She would twist and turn, sometimes even lean backwards, tilting her head all the way back.
It's rather worrying. But at the same time, I wouldn't have it any other way. No matter what happens, she is still my wonderful, adorable baby cousin.
It's horrible that at such a young age she has to go through so much pain and suffering. It breaks my hear to see her in pain. But I believe things will only get better. They always say that you have to overcome obstacles to see the brighter, better things in life. I truly hope that life will only get better for Victoria. I can only pray that it does.
Despite everything, and to sum it up using my title. I will always love Victoria, forever and for always, for who she is :)
~Aurora
I decided to do another post because I'm happy someone actually enjoys reading them :D
Now, I don't think I've mentioned it in my blog before, but I have an adorable little baby cousin called Victoria who is around 2 to 3 years old. She is just adorable and has lovely big puppy eyes that you can never say no to. She's quite small for her age but she is absolutely gorgeous. You would just coo if you saw her.
I might post a picture of her later on...
Anyways, although quite young, she has been having some health issues. Having high fevers, i think even a seizure at one stage, it hasn't exactly been a good childhood so far. Recently, there has been some problems with her throat. I don't know the exact details, but I think there is some kind of lump that is in her throat. I saw her yesterday, and because of that lump, the sound of her coughing is raspy and it sounds like there is some phlegm in her throat. She'd actually gone to hospital because of that reason a while ago. Her tongue was all swollen and it was just unbearable to watch this tiny little baby on one of the big hospital beds, an IV in her arm. It just hurt my heart.
She's out of hospital already, but the problem is still there. I overheard yesterday that my auntie has booked for an operation to get rid of the lump soon, so that will be good. Although, I also heard there could be some side effects.
I also overheard yesterday that she might have slight autism. At the age of around 2 or 3, babies are usually able to talk a little, even if it's to sprout out nonsense that nobody but themselves and other babies can somehow understand. Yet, our little Victoria can not speak yet. She can only say "wee" over and over. After hearing that she had slight autism, I started to think over the habits that Victoria possessed.
Now, I'm no expert on autism, I've never research it or anything. But I have noticed that whenever Victoria came over to my house. She would love to go up the stairs. That's normal. Babies get fascinated by stairs. But, the thing with her is, she goes up the steps. Stops for a bit and then goes straight back down and then repeats the process all over again. She would run around the house, then stop at the stairs and go up again. It's just, she loves to repeat whatever she does, the same process. I noticed that yesterday as well. I was playing with her and she would do the same things over and over again. I'd let her walk, she would walk down the corridor, into the toilet and then touch the toilet. In the corridor, she would hold my hand, then crouch down and pull me down with her. Then she would stand up and pull me up as well. And then the process starts all over again.
When you hold her in your arms, she would not be able to stay still. She would twist and turn, sometimes even lean backwards, tilting her head all the way back.
It's rather worrying. But at the same time, I wouldn't have it any other way. No matter what happens, she is still my wonderful, adorable baby cousin.
It's horrible that at such a young age she has to go through so much pain and suffering. It breaks my hear to see her in pain. But I believe things will only get better. They always say that you have to overcome obstacles to see the brighter, better things in life. I truly hope that life will only get better for Victoria. I can only pray that it does.
Despite everything, and to sum it up using my title. I will always love Victoria, forever and for always, for who she is :)
~Aurora
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Swamped in work
Hey guys.
I've been meaning to write in this blog for ages, as always. I suppose now is a good time as any, to give you guys an update on my life.
It's the start of year 12, and although it has only just begun, I'm feeling the pressure already. Now, I'm not sure if you guys know, but I love maths. Not in the obssessed, I do maths everyday kind of love, but the I'm actually good at maths and enjoy doing it. So, it would only be right that I chose 4 unit maths as one of my subjects for year 12.
I had actually been all excited about it. Ha! Looking back now, which isn't that far back, I just wanna laugh at my own naivety. 4 unit maths is much harder than I expected. with 3 periods for each unit, I am doing 12 out of 40 periods a week, of maths. It might not seem as bad, but having to do 3 unit and 4 unit maths within that time frame, having more than one exercise of homework a day, it is really horrible. To top it off, I go tutoring for 3 unit and 4 unit maths, both for 3 hours, on Saturday and Sunday. More maths homework!. I can honestly say that I really really really dislike maths right now, which is really surprising coming from my mouth.
I remember back last year I think, or was it this year. Some time or rather, the deputy principal at our school was talking to us about subject selections. When he got to 4 unit maths, he said "If you do 4 unit maths, you have to eat, drink and sleep maths". I had laughed back then. But now, I can only nod my head in agreement with that statement. That is a truly accurate statement.
I'm struggling to jugglee all this maths and still focus on all the other work that I have to get done. I could rant on and on about each subject and the amount of work that i have to do, but I shall spare you the detail since I'm sure you guys can all imagine it yourselves.
I really need to get organised with my work, and at the same time, I want to make sure that I leave myself some time to breathe. After all, you can't successfully swim if you don't come up for air once in a while.
I would love to go on and talk to you guys about more meaningful things but alas, I have to run to go and do some work.
I wish you guys all the best of luck and I shall try to blog again soon.
~Aurora
I've been meaning to write in this blog for ages, as always. I suppose now is a good time as any, to give you guys an update on my life.
It's the start of year 12, and although it has only just begun, I'm feeling the pressure already. Now, I'm not sure if you guys know, but I love maths. Not in the obssessed, I do maths everyday kind of love, but the I'm actually good at maths and enjoy doing it. So, it would only be right that I chose 4 unit maths as one of my subjects for year 12.
I had actually been all excited about it. Ha! Looking back now, which isn't that far back, I just wanna laugh at my own naivety. 4 unit maths is much harder than I expected. with 3 periods for each unit, I am doing 12 out of 40 periods a week, of maths. It might not seem as bad, but having to do 3 unit and 4 unit maths within that time frame, having more than one exercise of homework a day, it is really horrible. To top it off, I go tutoring for 3 unit and 4 unit maths, both for 3 hours, on Saturday and Sunday. More maths homework!. I can honestly say that I really really really dislike maths right now, which is really surprising coming from my mouth.
I remember back last year I think, or was it this year. Some time or rather, the deputy principal at our school was talking to us about subject selections. When he got to 4 unit maths, he said "If you do 4 unit maths, you have to eat, drink and sleep maths". I had laughed back then. But now, I can only nod my head in agreement with that statement. That is a truly accurate statement.
I'm struggling to jugglee all this maths and still focus on all the other work that I have to get done. I could rant on and on about each subject and the amount of work that i have to do, but I shall spare you the detail since I'm sure you guys can all imagine it yourselves.
I really need to get organised with my work, and at the same time, I want to make sure that I leave myself some time to breathe. After all, you can't successfully swim if you don't come up for air once in a while.
I would love to go on and talk to you guys about more meaningful things but alas, I have to run to go and do some work.
I wish you guys all the best of luck and I shall try to blog again soon.
~Aurora
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Just one more to go
Hello peeps!
I just finished my Japanese exam today. I only have Japanese speaking to do.
I must say that the Japanese exam was not as bad as I had expected. I was able to walk out of that exam without feeling and regrets...well, not any major ones anyways. But then again, I had tried really hard to study the day before. I actually did some really productive studying and dedicatedly listened to Japanese stuff to prepare myself for the listening. And I think it really did pay off!
Out of all my exams so far, Modern history is still the worse. So I'm not exactly sure whether or not I should keep it for year 12. I'm definitely dropping Japanese, there is no doubt about that.
Actually, today I missed the bus after my exam and had to catch the train to Hurstville to catch the bus and ended up missing that one too. I ended up walking home. And for some reason, I tend to get into a contemplative mood as I walk home. So I was thinking about why I did not feel relieved or delighted to have finished my last Japanese listening, reading and writing exams.
I came to the conclusion that despite Japanese being difficult and hard to keep up with during the last couple of months, it really has been a joy to learn. It always delights me to be able to pick up some words when something Japanese comes up. Learning a second language is definitely hard, but to be able to learn it and understand and speak in it is definitely a joy and something to be proud of.
Of course, I can't exactly say that for myself but it definitely has been an amazing experience to have learnt another language. And while I'm not continuing to learn it, I definitely want to pursue learning it later on when I have the time to actually sit down and learn it slowly but surely.
So as for now, it's ta-ta for now to Japanese...well, after my speaking exam that is. And I'm sure i'll see you again some time :)
~Aurora
I just finished my Japanese exam today. I only have Japanese speaking to do.
I must say that the Japanese exam was not as bad as I had expected. I was able to walk out of that exam without feeling and regrets...well, not any major ones anyways. But then again, I had tried really hard to study the day before. I actually did some really productive studying and dedicatedly listened to Japanese stuff to prepare myself for the listening. And I think it really did pay off!
Out of all my exams so far, Modern history is still the worse. So I'm not exactly sure whether or not I should keep it for year 12. I'm definitely dropping Japanese, there is no doubt about that.
Actually, today I missed the bus after my exam and had to catch the train to Hurstville to catch the bus and ended up missing that one too. I ended up walking home. And for some reason, I tend to get into a contemplative mood as I walk home. So I was thinking about why I did not feel relieved or delighted to have finished my last Japanese listening, reading and writing exams.
I came to the conclusion that despite Japanese being difficult and hard to keep up with during the last couple of months, it really has been a joy to learn. It always delights me to be able to pick up some words when something Japanese comes up. Learning a second language is definitely hard, but to be able to learn it and understand and speak in it is definitely a joy and something to be proud of.
Of course, I can't exactly say that for myself but it definitely has been an amazing experience to have learnt another language. And while I'm not continuing to learn it, I definitely want to pursue learning it later on when I have the time to actually sit down and learn it slowly but surely.
So as for now, it's ta-ta for now to Japanese...well, after my speaking exam that is. And I'm sure i'll see you again some time :)
~Aurora
Monday, September 13, 2010
Towards the end...
Hey guys,
What can I say, it's nearly the end of my preliminary exams and I am ecstatic! It's been a tough week filled with lots of stress, studying, napping and fooling around. I must say that I wasn't overly stressed, at some points, being a little too lazy for my liking. This may have caused my to not get as well as I aim for but as everyone says, prelims aren't that important and count towards nothing! Haha...I wish all exams were like that. But unfortunately, it won't be the same next year.
I talk like I've finished my exams, but of course, I still have 2 days of exams left and actually finish on the Friday:(
So technically I'm not finished, but I feel sorta relaxed because my last two exams are Japanese, something which I'm planning on dropping next year. However, always the over-achiever, I still wanna do well, however, slim that possibility may seem.
Today I just did my extension 1 math exam and my business exam. I must say that maths was challenging and I wasn't able to do a few bits, but it wasn't too bad. Hopefully I achieved good results because I'm always counting on my maths marks to lift up my mood and provide a cushion for my fall when I discover bad results for my other exams.
Now for business...I actually planned on dropping it because there are some parts of business which I don't actually like i.e. the construction of their business reports, which is different to essays, structure and all. However, I actually found the business exam not overly difficult. It was very lengthy and wordy and I was stumped on some points, but I was able to answer every single question. I feel I did better for my business than my modern, but I won't know that for sure until I get my marks back.
With all the subjects that I am doing next year, I am sitting on 12 units. We are allowed to have a minimum of 10 units and I know how some people want more units, so that they have something to fall back on. But I don't think that's a good idea, because that means you have to work extra hard on another subject, i.e. a year's worth of work for that subject. So I am currently deciding between modern history or business studies. I was leaning more towards the side of modern history because I liked it more out of the two (by the way, I hate both of them :P) But now I find that I am more confident at business. I was so stumped for modern history (I don't know if I already told you that or not). I sat in the exam, clueless at what I should say or write, which really wasn't a good sign.
So yeah, I couldn't stop smiling all the way home, thinking about all the things I want to do after my last exam.
Here is a list:
- eating a whole tub of connoisseur's cookies and cream ice cream (it is to die for!)
- pampering myself i.e. doing a mask :D
- sleeping
- watching dramas/ variety shows/ movies
- reading books (my sister bought a series of books by the author of Devil Wears Prada which I've been wanting to read but couldn't since I had exams)
- shopping
Yeah...that's all I can think of right now. I don't think I'll get a chance to do all of them but I'm sure I'll at least be able to do quite a few of them.
Keke...I can't wait!
Anyways, wish you guys all the best of luck for the rest of your exams :), if you have any more that is
~Aurora
What can I say, it's nearly the end of my preliminary exams and I am ecstatic! It's been a tough week filled with lots of stress, studying, napping and fooling around. I must say that I wasn't overly stressed, at some points, being a little too lazy for my liking. This may have caused my to not get as well as I aim for but as everyone says, prelims aren't that important and count towards nothing! Haha...I wish all exams were like that. But unfortunately, it won't be the same next year.
I talk like I've finished my exams, but of course, I still have 2 days of exams left and actually finish on the Friday:(
So technically I'm not finished, but I feel sorta relaxed because my last two exams are Japanese, something which I'm planning on dropping next year. However, always the over-achiever, I still wanna do well, however, slim that possibility may seem.
Today I just did my extension 1 math exam and my business exam. I must say that maths was challenging and I wasn't able to do a few bits, but it wasn't too bad. Hopefully I achieved good results because I'm always counting on my maths marks to lift up my mood and provide a cushion for my fall when I discover bad results for my other exams.
Now for business...I actually planned on dropping it because there are some parts of business which I don't actually like i.e. the construction of their business reports, which is different to essays, structure and all. However, I actually found the business exam not overly difficult. It was very lengthy and wordy and I was stumped on some points, but I was able to answer every single question. I feel I did better for my business than my modern, but I won't know that for sure until I get my marks back.
With all the subjects that I am doing next year, I am sitting on 12 units. We are allowed to have a minimum of 10 units and I know how some people want more units, so that they have something to fall back on. But I don't think that's a good idea, because that means you have to work extra hard on another subject, i.e. a year's worth of work for that subject. So I am currently deciding between modern history or business studies. I was leaning more towards the side of modern history because I liked it more out of the two (by the way, I hate both of them :P) But now I find that I am more confident at business. I was so stumped for modern history (I don't know if I already told you that or not). I sat in the exam, clueless at what I should say or write, which really wasn't a good sign.
So yeah, I couldn't stop smiling all the way home, thinking about all the things I want to do after my last exam.
Here is a list:
- eating a whole tub of connoisseur's cookies and cream ice cream (it is to die for!)
- pampering myself i.e. doing a mask :D
- sleeping
- watching dramas/ variety shows/ movies
- reading books (my sister bought a series of books by the author of Devil Wears Prada which I've been wanting to read but couldn't since I had exams)
- shopping
Yeah...that's all I can think of right now. I don't think I'll get a chance to do all of them but I'm sure I'll at least be able to do quite a few of them.
Keke...I can't wait!
Anyways, wish you guys all the best of luck for the rest of your exams :), if you have any more that is
~Aurora
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
The end of year 11
Hello!
Keke...once again it's been quite a while since I have blogged. I really should try to constantly blog rather than blogging every once in a while. You never know, that might actually get me more followers :P
Hmm..it's been a tiring week so far. Starting our prelim exams, I was totally freaking out. Our first exam was english, something which I only studied seriously the night before as well as some off-hand studying on Saturday...I dunno what I was thinking. I was actually more scared about Economics which was on the Tuesday rather than English which was on the Monday. Something just didn't sit right with me about Economics...maybe something to do with the fact that there was just so much work that we had covered in eco (a WHOLE year's worth of work!) and english was just Clueless and Emma. But yeah, it felt so surreal doing the first exam, I don't think it really occurred to me that we had actually started exams during the english exam. I felt so wobbly and shaky after it (side-effects I get from doing exams). That was when it occurred to me that exams had officially began.
I must say that English wasn't too bad. Well...I didn't really have any pre-determined expectations, but according to my standards and the amount of past papers that I have done during tutoring, I would say that it was fairly challenging, but not to a large extent. I'm not saying that I did extremely well because I always manage to make some kind of silly errors during English exams. I tend to had a weird mind set during such exams, something which doesn't really work well to my advantage.
Well anyways, considering I finished my exams in the morning, I went with a group of friends, my "eco buddies", to study at the library. Unfortunately, it didn't go as well as I had expected it to go, although we did drill in a fair bit of info. I think it was more to do with that fact that the topic we were revising wasn't exactly the most exciting topic in the world rather than our lack of commitment and attention. We actually didn't really fool around too much. But eventually we called quits as we could no longer concentrate, or in my terms, "ran out of steam". I went home after that, had a nap and some food, as well as watched some things before doing economics study. To be honest, I was most worried about Economics within all my subjects. It seemed the most daunting, especially in terms of the amount of notes which I had to revise and memories.
So when it came to the Tuesday, I was extremely scared. I even went as far as to praying the night before as well as the morning before the exam, a ritual which we all tend to do within the family. My grandma, as sweet as ever, made some special tea for me which was suppose to help me stay awake (requested by my dad to make for me :)) and she also made some soup to give me strength. My little sister gave me her cat charm, her lucky charm, and I also had my own fish/koi charm which all my sisters and I have taken with us to our selective exams and other exams. Furthermore, I wore my lovely earrings which my cousin from hk bought me when she was here (I vowed to wear them to all my exams). So all in all, I think I was very well equipped in terms of good luck charms.
I walked shakily into the exam, dreading it till the last second. But once I started reading the exam and checking out the questions, I found it all to be not too bad. That's not to say I did well as I was totally clueless about my essay, writing whatever came to mind to fill up the space. I remember my sister and one of the economics teachers had advised us to bullshit, as long as it made sense and had some relevance, as it was better than writing nothing at all. And boy, did I utilise such a point. During the exam, there were quite a few people who asked for more than the 5 already given pages for the essay, which I found really shocking. I mean, what in the world could they write that would take up so much room, unless of course, they had big handwriting or lots of diagrams. As for the multiple choice and short answers, I would say that they weren't too bad. I was able to answer all of them. But man, I had time to check at the end, and I came across the question "What is the difference between tax avoidance and tax evasion?" I wrote down my answer and then when I came across it when I was checking my work, I felt that there was something off about it and changed my answer around.
BIG MISTAKE! I actually had it right the first time and by changing it, I already lost 2 marks. I'm still kicking myself over it. Haha..I tried the 'washing hands when you regret something' technique, but it didn't really help...
Anyways, you would think that because I have done such an error so many times before, especially during multiple choice, that I would learn from it. As the saying went "we learn from our mistakes". Of course, I'm different and decide to challenge that idea, as well as the idea that "your first answer is usually your correct one". Silly silly me. Ahh well, what can I do... Hm...maybe I'll actually learn from it this time :P
After economics, I felt so relaxed! I literally felt as if weight had been lifted off my shoulder and I could finally breathe again, as sappy as that sounds. I went home, did some surfing on the net, ate and went to sleep. Which reminds me, during the economics exam, because I had only had a bowl of soup and tea in the morning, I was hungry. And thus, the inevitable gurgling of my tummy in protest of not eating something substantial came. It was really loud in my opinion, especially within the confines of exam conditions, where it was practically silent. I was so afraid everyone could hear it, I was internally shouting at my stomach to stop! Haha...thankfully no one mentioned it, so I'm just going to innocently believe no one heard it :D
Anyways, I studied maths, going through all my notes and taking out the ones which I found difficult. I did some past papers to, although nothing too hard. As bad as it seems, I didn't actually prepare much for the maths exam. I actually find them very fun, especially when I know what to do. While all other subjects, you tend to have so little time left, always racing against the clock to finish in time, in maths, you usually can cruise through the exam fairly well, having enough time to check your paper thoroughly as well. Of course, that isn't usually the case, it depends on how hard the paper is set. So yeah, I was excited to do the maths exam, as nerdy as that seems.
So, this morning, I came to school, not nearly as nervous as I was for my other exams. However, when everyone started to come, revising over their work, I started to get nervous: heart racing, palms a little sweaty. But once I got into the exam and checked out all the questions, I was a little calmer. When it was time to start, I took a steady approach to it, calmly working through the questions, making sure I paid detail to the answer. You are probably wondering why the hell I would be so calm under exam conditions, but considering we had 3 hours to do the exam, I think you could sort of understand. I was actually able to finish the exam before 2 hours was up and sat there going through all my questions, practically re-doing the questions to see if I had done the correctly. Of course, there were some questions that I had struggled to do. Those were the ones which I came back to first, once I had finished the exam. I managed (hopefully) to figure out the right answer. After checking my exam, I STILL had time left. So I decided to fix up my graphs, making sure I included all relevant information. You tend to lose marks if your graph is too "furry" if you know what I mean. And I have a tendency to make mine "furry", so I spent some time to smooth out the lines. With less than 10 minutes left, I went through my paper, checking to see if I had answered all the questions. And within the last few seconds, sat there, waiting for the commanding "Pens down"
All in all, I would say that the maths paper was not too bad, though at times it could be a little challenging.
What was frustrating was the fact that, in the morning, I had gone to the toilet to ensure I wouldn't have to within the exam. But of course, in exams, people tend to have weak bladders due to their nervousness, so I had a bit of an urge to go during the exam. I find that so annoying. To have to go during the exam could be really time consuming and potentially risk some precious time of yours. But of course, you have to go because you can't concentrate on your work if all you can think about is your urgent need to go to the toilet. Hopefully I won't have to during any of my remaining exams.
And thus, this ends the first 3 days of my exams. I have a day off tomorrow, so I'm really excited about that. I have modern on friday, which I am planning to study after I finish blogging. It shouldn't be too bad, I just have to work at a steady pace and make sure I read the questions carefully before diving straight first into answering it. Hopefully the sources won't be too bad. Other subjects I shall worry about later one :D
So yeah, that concludes my post. I hope I haven't bore you with my dull recount. And for all those people doing exams around this time, I wish you all the best of luck (or in lucy's case, break a bone!)
~Aurora
P.S. Let's all work hard!
P.P.S. I bought myself a tub of my favourite ice cream, connoisseur's cookies and cream, which is currently one sale for half price! (sadly the sale ends today :(). I'm planning to eat the whole tub by myself once I finish all my exams. Can't wait!
Keke...once again it's been quite a while since I have blogged. I really should try to constantly blog rather than blogging every once in a while. You never know, that might actually get me more followers :P
Hmm..it's been a tiring week so far. Starting our prelim exams, I was totally freaking out. Our first exam was english, something which I only studied seriously the night before as well as some off-hand studying on Saturday...I dunno what I was thinking. I was actually more scared about Economics which was on the Tuesday rather than English which was on the Monday. Something just didn't sit right with me about Economics...maybe something to do with the fact that there was just so much work that we had covered in eco (a WHOLE year's worth of work!) and english was just Clueless and Emma. But yeah, it felt so surreal doing the first exam, I don't think it really occurred to me that we had actually started exams during the english exam. I felt so wobbly and shaky after it (side-effects I get from doing exams). That was when it occurred to me that exams had officially began.
I must say that English wasn't too bad. Well...I didn't really have any pre-determined expectations, but according to my standards and the amount of past papers that I have done during tutoring, I would say that it was fairly challenging, but not to a large extent. I'm not saying that I did extremely well because I always manage to make some kind of silly errors during English exams. I tend to had a weird mind set during such exams, something which doesn't really work well to my advantage.
Well anyways, considering I finished my exams in the morning, I went with a group of friends, my "eco buddies", to study at the library. Unfortunately, it didn't go as well as I had expected it to go, although we did drill in a fair bit of info. I think it was more to do with that fact that the topic we were revising wasn't exactly the most exciting topic in the world rather than our lack of commitment and attention. We actually didn't really fool around too much. But eventually we called quits as we could no longer concentrate, or in my terms, "ran out of steam". I went home after that, had a nap and some food, as well as watched some things before doing economics study. To be honest, I was most worried about Economics within all my subjects. It seemed the most daunting, especially in terms of the amount of notes which I had to revise and memories.
So when it came to the Tuesday, I was extremely scared. I even went as far as to praying the night before as well as the morning before the exam, a ritual which we all tend to do within the family. My grandma, as sweet as ever, made some special tea for me which was suppose to help me stay awake (requested by my dad to make for me :)) and she also made some soup to give me strength. My little sister gave me her cat charm, her lucky charm, and I also had my own fish/koi charm which all my sisters and I have taken with us to our selective exams and other exams. Furthermore, I wore my lovely earrings which my cousin from hk bought me when she was here (I vowed to wear them to all my exams). So all in all, I think I was very well equipped in terms of good luck charms.
I walked shakily into the exam, dreading it till the last second. But once I started reading the exam and checking out the questions, I found it all to be not too bad. That's not to say I did well as I was totally clueless about my essay, writing whatever came to mind to fill up the space. I remember my sister and one of the economics teachers had advised us to bullshit, as long as it made sense and had some relevance, as it was better than writing nothing at all. And boy, did I utilise such a point. During the exam, there were quite a few people who asked for more than the 5 already given pages for the essay, which I found really shocking. I mean, what in the world could they write that would take up so much room, unless of course, they had big handwriting or lots of diagrams. As for the multiple choice and short answers, I would say that they weren't too bad. I was able to answer all of them. But man, I had time to check at the end, and I came across the question "What is the difference between tax avoidance and tax evasion?" I wrote down my answer and then when I came across it when I was checking my work, I felt that there was something off about it and changed my answer around.
BIG MISTAKE! I actually had it right the first time and by changing it, I already lost 2 marks. I'm still kicking myself over it. Haha..I tried the 'washing hands when you regret something' technique, but it didn't really help...
Anyways, you would think that because I have done such an error so many times before, especially during multiple choice, that I would learn from it. As the saying went "we learn from our mistakes". Of course, I'm different and decide to challenge that idea, as well as the idea that "your first answer is usually your correct one". Silly silly me. Ahh well, what can I do... Hm...maybe I'll actually learn from it this time :P
After economics, I felt so relaxed! I literally felt as if weight had been lifted off my shoulder and I could finally breathe again, as sappy as that sounds. I went home, did some surfing on the net, ate and went to sleep. Which reminds me, during the economics exam, because I had only had a bowl of soup and tea in the morning, I was hungry. And thus, the inevitable gurgling of my tummy in protest of not eating something substantial came. It was really loud in my opinion, especially within the confines of exam conditions, where it was practically silent. I was so afraid everyone could hear it, I was internally shouting at my stomach to stop! Haha...thankfully no one mentioned it, so I'm just going to innocently believe no one heard it :D
Anyways, I studied maths, going through all my notes and taking out the ones which I found difficult. I did some past papers to, although nothing too hard. As bad as it seems, I didn't actually prepare much for the maths exam. I actually find them very fun, especially when I know what to do. While all other subjects, you tend to have so little time left, always racing against the clock to finish in time, in maths, you usually can cruise through the exam fairly well, having enough time to check your paper thoroughly as well. Of course, that isn't usually the case, it depends on how hard the paper is set. So yeah, I was excited to do the maths exam, as nerdy as that seems.
So, this morning, I came to school, not nearly as nervous as I was for my other exams. However, when everyone started to come, revising over their work, I started to get nervous: heart racing, palms a little sweaty. But once I got into the exam and checked out all the questions, I was a little calmer. When it was time to start, I took a steady approach to it, calmly working through the questions, making sure I paid detail to the answer. You are probably wondering why the hell I would be so calm under exam conditions, but considering we had 3 hours to do the exam, I think you could sort of understand. I was actually able to finish the exam before 2 hours was up and sat there going through all my questions, practically re-doing the questions to see if I had done the correctly. Of course, there were some questions that I had struggled to do. Those were the ones which I came back to first, once I had finished the exam. I managed (hopefully) to figure out the right answer. After checking my exam, I STILL had time left. So I decided to fix up my graphs, making sure I included all relevant information. You tend to lose marks if your graph is too "furry" if you know what I mean. And I have a tendency to make mine "furry", so I spent some time to smooth out the lines. With less than 10 minutes left, I went through my paper, checking to see if I had answered all the questions. And within the last few seconds, sat there, waiting for the commanding "Pens down"
All in all, I would say that the maths paper was not too bad, though at times it could be a little challenging.
What was frustrating was the fact that, in the morning, I had gone to the toilet to ensure I wouldn't have to within the exam. But of course, in exams, people tend to have weak bladders due to their nervousness, so I had a bit of an urge to go during the exam. I find that so annoying. To have to go during the exam could be really time consuming and potentially risk some precious time of yours. But of course, you have to go because you can't concentrate on your work if all you can think about is your urgent need to go to the toilet. Hopefully I won't have to during any of my remaining exams.
And thus, this ends the first 3 days of my exams. I have a day off tomorrow, so I'm really excited about that. I have modern on friday, which I am planning to study after I finish blogging. It shouldn't be too bad, I just have to work at a steady pace and make sure I read the questions carefully before diving straight first into answering it. Hopefully the sources won't be too bad. Other subjects I shall worry about later one :D
So yeah, that concludes my post. I hope I haven't bore you with my dull recount. And for all those people doing exams around this time, I wish you all the best of luck (or in lucy's case, break a bone!)
~Aurora
P.S. Let's all work hard!
P.P.S. I bought myself a tub of my favourite ice cream, connoisseur's cookies and cream, which is currently one sale for half price! (sadly the sale ends today :(). I'm planning to eat the whole tub by myself once I finish all my exams. Can't wait!
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Update on my oh-so-mundane life
Hello my dears.
It sure has been a while has it not? I think the last time I blogged was sometime in the holidays. Ahh...it seems so long ago. In the blink of an eye, nearly 3 weeks have passed. It has been one whirlwind, full of assessments, assignments and what not. I think I fully recovered in the holidays. It didn't help that I stayed up late for the past fridays, finishing my major assignments, which I should've finished in the holidays. But oh, I suppose it doesn't matter now. It's done and over and that's that.
Right now, hmm, I'm feeling really tired. You can probably see the dark eyebags under my eyes, I probably look like a panda. I really should start sleeping earlier. It's really bad, I sleep during class sometimes.
In terms of emotions, I think I'm alright. I'm not feeling depressed but I'm not overly happy. I currently have nothing on right now, nothing major or important so that's good. I'm trying to cut back on watching because I practically watch things 24/7 at home, mostly, if not all, korean things. :)
I think I should invest some time in caring for my body. I really need to do some exercise to keep fit because I am so out of shape it's not funny. It doesn't help that I eat so much. Kekeke
Witnessing before my very eyes the speed of which the weeks pass, I realise that I have to start studying soon if I want to do well in my preliminary exams in week 8 this term. Before I know it, and trust me when I say that I don't want to say it but, I'll soon be in year 12. And that, my friends, is a very scary thought. Suddenly, I ask myself where all the time has gone? What happened to the junior years? Year 10? Year 11? It just doesn't seem possible that soon I'll be in year 12, and yet it's really happening and I really need to get my head round to it and begin to think realistically.
I've decided to start studying in week 5 (ha! let's hope i actually stick to it) and so, I have this week and next week to finalise my notes and play all I want before I get down to business.
I plan to go out with Jay sometime this weekend to watch Step Up 3D because we both really wanna watch it. Hopefully it'll be good!
Also, since it is the end of my sister's trials tomorrow! Woohoo for her! Haha..I plan to get her a tub of ice cream (Connoisseur, expensive delicious ice cream :D) so that we can celebrate. Keke...eating ourselves silly.
So yeah, that's me for now. I'll try and update more often, even though it's really boring for you guys :D
I wish my sister the best of luck for her exam tomorrow. May all go well for her!
~Aurora
P.S. Props for reading this far :P
It sure has been a while has it not? I think the last time I blogged was sometime in the holidays. Ahh...it seems so long ago. In the blink of an eye, nearly 3 weeks have passed. It has been one whirlwind, full of assessments, assignments and what not. I think I fully recovered in the holidays. It didn't help that I stayed up late for the past fridays, finishing my major assignments, which I should've finished in the holidays. But oh, I suppose it doesn't matter now. It's done and over and that's that.
Right now, hmm, I'm feeling really tired. You can probably see the dark eyebags under my eyes, I probably look like a panda. I really should start sleeping earlier. It's really bad, I sleep during class sometimes.
In terms of emotions, I think I'm alright. I'm not feeling depressed but I'm not overly happy. I currently have nothing on right now, nothing major or important so that's good. I'm trying to cut back on watching because I practically watch things 24/7 at home, mostly, if not all, korean things. :)
I think I should invest some time in caring for my body. I really need to do some exercise to keep fit because I am so out of shape it's not funny. It doesn't help that I eat so much. Kekeke
Witnessing before my very eyes the speed of which the weeks pass, I realise that I have to start studying soon if I want to do well in my preliminary exams in week 8 this term. Before I know it, and trust me when I say that I don't want to say it but, I'll soon be in year 12. And that, my friends, is a very scary thought. Suddenly, I ask myself where all the time has gone? What happened to the junior years? Year 10? Year 11? It just doesn't seem possible that soon I'll be in year 12, and yet it's really happening and I really need to get my head round to it and begin to think realistically.
I've decided to start studying in week 5 (ha! let's hope i actually stick to it) and so, I have this week and next week to finalise my notes and play all I want before I get down to business.
I plan to go out with Jay sometime this weekend to watch Step Up 3D because we both really wanna watch it. Hopefully it'll be good!
Also, since it is the end of my sister's trials tomorrow! Woohoo for her! Haha..I plan to get her a tub of ice cream (Connoisseur, expensive delicious ice cream :D) so that we can celebrate. Keke...eating ourselves silly.
So yeah, that's me for now. I'll try and update more often, even though it's really boring for you guys :D
I wish my sister the best of luck for her exam tomorrow. May all go well for her!
~Aurora
P.S. Props for reading this far :P
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Bitter taste of failure
Ah...today I had the oppotunity of understanding the bitter taste of failure...literally! As you would've known if you had read my last post, I had planned to make banana pancakes today. However, when frying the pancakes, they were too mushy, causing them to be unable to be flipped over and when they were able to, they were burnt. Not only that, but they tasted very bitter. This is due to the fact that, we had no baking powder at home and my sister and I agreed that baking soda was the same thing, so we substituted that instead. BAD MOVE! This would explain why the pancakes were bitter the last time I made pancakes as well. Sigh...and here I was thinking it was the burnt butter. I had to chuck the batter away because we just couldn't use it.
It was very heartbreaking :( Note: If you have no baking powder, a good substitute would be just to not include it and use self-raising flour instead of plain flour, because it essentially is the same thing as baking powder.
Anyways, I've wasted enough time dilly-dallying on the internet today. I have to get cracking on my assignments or else I am so screwed! Which..technically, I already am. Mannn...what the hell am I going to do??
~Aurora
It was very heartbreaking :( Note: If you have no baking powder, a good substitute would be just to not include it and use self-raising flour instead of plain flour, because it essentially is the same thing as baking powder.
Anyways, I've wasted enough time dilly-dallying on the internet today. I have to get cracking on my assignments or else I am so screwed! Which..technically, I already am. Mannn...what the hell am I going to do??
~Aurora
Friday, July 16, 2010
Banana pancakes
You guys probably all remember my pancake making only a couple of days ago of some simple pancakes. Today at dinner, while my mum was telling us to eat more bananas since we had some at home, I was struck with the memory of the delicious banana pancakes that Laurean, my food tech buddy, had made during one of our practical food tech lessons back in yr 8 or 9. They were delicious and since then I have always been meaning to try to make them. But it seems like I've never really had the chance.
Well...after my mum's urgings to eat bananas, I decided to finally take up the challenge and make them. I've been searching around for recipes and finally found one that is quite to my liking. Here it is below:
Ingredients
1 cup all-purpose flour
1 tablespoon white sugar
2 tablespoons baking powder
1/4 tablespoon salt
1 egg, beaten
1 cup milk
2 tablespoons vegetable oil
2 ripe bananas, mashed
Directions
1. Combine flour, white sugar, baking powder and salt
2. In separate bowl, mix together egg, milk, vegetable oil and bananas
3. Stir flour mixture into banana mixture
I was reading the reviews and I decided to add a few touches to the recipe, under the guidance of what the reviewers had to say. I decided to add 1/2 teaspon of vanilla extract because it is suppose to make the pancakes taste more delicious. Also, apparently some reviewers said that the pancakes were a little mushy, so I am gonna change 2 ripe bananas to 1 1/2 bananas and see how that goes. It was also suggested that all the dry ingredients be sifted to ensure smoother pancakes so I shall do that.
And last but not least, I was reminded to keep a low temperature flame while cooking the pancakes because when I cooked the other pancakes, some turned out a little burnt. I am also not going to use butter when frying my pancakes because, also due to the high temperature flame, the butter burnt and ended up making the pancakes taste a little bitter. I think I shall used oil instead to make it safer.
I know that usually all-purpose flour constitutes to plain flour and I usually use plain flour for my pancakes, but one of the reviewers said that they used self-raising flour and it turned out well. I am tossing between using plain flour or self-raising flour. If anyone could give me a tip towards which flour would be a better alternative, hopefully before the end of the night since I am making it tomorrow morning, it would be much appreciated :)
Other than that, I hope you guys have a lovely rest of the day. And maybe you guys can try the recipe too!
I'll make sure to take pictures of the final results and post them up to let you guys see how I did.
~Aurora
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Peek-a-boo!
Isn't the picture so adorable? I was googling peek-a-boo on images and it popped up...along with some other disturbing images but let us not discuss them.
Hm...I have been blogging a lot these days, which is a good thing I suppose. :)
Ergh...I have to work hard these last few days before the holidays end. I was just doing my modern essay when I realised that it was due in the SECOND week back, meaning I shouldn't be wasting my time on this, when I should be doing other stuff that are due earlier. Ah...silly me. I've just wasted less than half my day on it. Tsk tsk. Oh well, I suppose I've done some of the modern to save me some time when I actually have to do it.
But I should go on to do other stuff now.
Keke...I was bathing in the sun (clothes on thank you very much, you dirty minded people :P) on the yoga mat we bought our mum, while reading Emma. It was very nice and warm. :)
But that's besides the point, I think I shall start on my economic essays now so that I can get it out of the way to study later on. Then I should really start my English speech. Keke...
I hope you guys are working hard too :)
~Aurora
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Goofiness
Keke...I thought I'd better post these photos up before I realise how stupid I look in them and decide not to. Just to let you guys see how goofy I look with the glasses that I mentioned in the previous post. Sorry about the quality, the webcam on this laptop was weird. So yeah.
Rate my goofiness!
~Aurora
P.S. I realised that these are the first photos I've ever posted of myself on this blog. Way to make a first impression :D
P.S.S. Yes...I can be very asian at times. And I do take luvos of myself once in a while. I would just like to take this time to clarify that I do not always take photos of myself. Kekeke
My cosy little home
Sitting alone in the kitchen of my house, listening to the peaceful music of Yiruma, I feel oddly at peace. It made to start to think about a home of my own.
For starters, it had to be an apartment because i think anything bigger would be too big for only myself to live in. Secondly, I would love for a cosy couch which i could grab some blankets and my laptop to snuggle up in as I surfed on the internet and did other stuff. A small, cute kitchen would be lovely, with a countertop (i think that's what they call it) so I can eat breakfast there. Of course, if i could, I would love an apartment which looked out to the ocean or where you could view the sun rise every morning. It sounds absolutely wonderful. The floor would be mostly carpet except for the kitchen and the toilet and the laundry room which obviously has to be tiles. This would ensure a cosy atmosphere within the house because I think that tiles makes the home feel cold.
I would also have a veranda where there would be a nice chair which I could sit on and read a book while looking out to the scenery. The walls within the house would be a simple, baby pink or very faded pink that is almost white. Around the house would be pictures of all different shapes and sizes of me with the people close to me or of scenery, the places I've been too, anything!
Now, as for my room, it would be the same colour as the rest of the house, maybe a little shade darker but nothing too dark. And I could stick those shadowy pictures that I've been around to add little touches to it. I don't require a huge room, a fairly average sized room would be a-okay with me. And I would have a little vanity mirror and a wardrobe full of clothes and things. A window would also be good, facing the nice scenery preferably. I would place my bed under the window so that when the sunlight shines in the morning, I could wake up to it :) A beanbag would also be good in my room, or maybe just a cushiony chair. Of course, a desk would also be necessary.
That's a rough description of a nice cosy home which I wouldn't mind having. I'm a very simple girl who doesn't need extravagant things to make me feel happy.
What's your dream home?
~Aurora
For starters, it had to be an apartment because i think anything bigger would be too big for only myself to live in. Secondly, I would love for a cosy couch which i could grab some blankets and my laptop to snuggle up in as I surfed on the internet and did other stuff. A small, cute kitchen would be lovely, with a countertop (i think that's what they call it) so I can eat breakfast there. Of course, if i could, I would love an apartment which looked out to the ocean or where you could view the sun rise every morning. It sounds absolutely wonderful. The floor would be mostly carpet except for the kitchen and the toilet and the laundry room which obviously has to be tiles. This would ensure a cosy atmosphere within the house because I think that tiles makes the home feel cold.
I would also have a veranda where there would be a nice chair which I could sit on and read a book while looking out to the scenery. The walls within the house would be a simple, baby pink or very faded pink that is almost white. Around the house would be pictures of all different shapes and sizes of me with the people close to me or of scenery, the places I've been too, anything!
Now, as for my room, it would be the same colour as the rest of the house, maybe a little shade darker but nothing too dark. And I could stick those shadowy pictures that I've been around to add little touches to it. I don't require a huge room, a fairly average sized room would be a-okay with me. And I would have a little vanity mirror and a wardrobe full of clothes and things. A window would also be good, facing the nice scenery preferably. I would place my bed under the window so that when the sunlight shines in the morning, I could wake up to it :) A beanbag would also be good in my room, or maybe just a cushiony chair. Of course, a desk would also be necessary.
That's a rough description of a nice cosy home which I wouldn't mind having. I'm a very simple girl who doesn't need extravagant things to make me feel happy.
What's your dream home?
~Aurora
Day...I don't even remember :P
Hello lovelys,
Today has been another uneventful day. Sigh...I seriously feel like I'm wasting my days. I don't go out and do something fun and at home, I don't do my homework. I actually don't know what I do, but soon enough, it's towards the end of the day and I feel so depressed because I have accomplished next to nothing. I always say that I will do work, but of course, that never happens. I can feel the time slipping through my fingertips and I can't seem to grasp on it.
In some ways, I wish I was the studious me from a while back. I dunno when, but slowly I started to slack off to become the lazy slob that I am now. And I know that year 11 isn't really that important, but as an asian, it is in my blood to not accept anything less than my asian expectations..which is pretty high standards.
I know that I have to work hard, but I can't seem to bring myself to do it. Now that I am capped (I know, I know, I'm already capped after just a few days :P), I am hoping that I can actually start to work hard since I now have nothing to distract me. To lessen my distractions even more, I'm planning to go to the library tomorrow to work. Hopefully I'll be productive! Then I can treat myself to some korean pancakes that I have been craving for a while now.
I must admit, I was afraid of going to the library myself because I was afraid of what people would say. Thankfully, after hinting subtly to my sister, she decided to come and study with me. I love her! Keke...and I'm gonna treat her to korean food seeing as she treated me to jap food a while back.
On the bright side, I have started one of the assignments, albeit, very late in the evening. But a start is a start and you know the quote: The hardest part of any journey is taking that first step. Keke...I know that I still have a long way to go, but I am going to give it my best! Fighting!
On another note, I am currently wearing fake glasses. Haha...it's actually those 3D glasses, but I've taken out the lenses. I think my sister started the trend, I got these glasses from little sister who has 2 pairs. They say that people who wear glasses are smart and studious. And my sisters wear it when they are feeling studious. But for some reason, when I wear these glasses, I actually feel more stupid and goofy. :) I'm one of a find :P Honestly, I look so funny in the glasses because they are way too big for me, but they are fun to wear. Keke. Not that I would wear it out because people would probably look at me like a weirdo.
Anyways...I better start getting to bed and maybe to read a bit more of Emma. Have a nice night :) Or should I say day, since it is already the start of a new day :D
~Aurora
Today has been another uneventful day. Sigh...I seriously feel like I'm wasting my days. I don't go out and do something fun and at home, I don't do my homework. I actually don't know what I do, but soon enough, it's towards the end of the day and I feel so depressed because I have accomplished next to nothing. I always say that I will do work, but of course, that never happens. I can feel the time slipping through my fingertips and I can't seem to grasp on it.
In some ways, I wish I was the studious me from a while back. I dunno when, but slowly I started to slack off to become the lazy slob that I am now. And I know that year 11 isn't really that important, but as an asian, it is in my blood to not accept anything less than my asian expectations..which is pretty high standards.
I know that I have to work hard, but I can't seem to bring myself to do it. Now that I am capped (I know, I know, I'm already capped after just a few days :P), I am hoping that I can actually start to work hard since I now have nothing to distract me. To lessen my distractions even more, I'm planning to go to the library tomorrow to work. Hopefully I'll be productive! Then I can treat myself to some korean pancakes that I have been craving for a while now.
I must admit, I was afraid of going to the library myself because I was afraid of what people would say. Thankfully, after hinting subtly to my sister, she decided to come and study with me. I love her! Keke...and I'm gonna treat her to korean food seeing as she treated me to jap food a while back.
On the bright side, I have started one of the assignments, albeit, very late in the evening. But a start is a start and you know the quote: The hardest part of any journey is taking that first step. Keke...I know that I still have a long way to go, but I am going to give it my best! Fighting!
On another note, I am currently wearing fake glasses. Haha...it's actually those 3D glasses, but I've taken out the lenses. I think my sister started the trend, I got these glasses from little sister who has 2 pairs. They say that people who wear glasses are smart and studious. And my sisters wear it when they are feeling studious. But for some reason, when I wear these glasses, I actually feel more stupid and goofy. :) I'm one of a find :P Honestly, I look so funny in the glasses because they are way too big for me, but they are fun to wear. Keke. Not that I would wear it out because people would probably look at me like a weirdo.
Anyways...I better start getting to bed and maybe to read a bit more of Emma. Have a nice night :) Or should I say day, since it is already the start of a new day :D
~Aurora
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Pancakes
Today I decided to make use of my time and cook up something. I used to always bake things in the holidays, but this holiday, I seem to be very lazy. But I did end up making some pancakes. And though they aren't perfect, they are definitely delicious to eat.
I dunno if someone had already invented it, but a while back I had started to eat pancakes with ice cream and honey and it was absolutely divine! And I have been having it ever since.
Eating pancakes doesn't seem like a formal thing does it? Usually people just eat it with their hands I would think. But of course, I don't do that. I actually use a knife and fork to eat it, believe it or not.
Anyways, I regret not taking a photo of the last pancake I made after I dressed it up nicely with ice cream and honey because it was really big and looked deliciously. But I made a replica and have posted it, as you can see in the above pictures.
If you have time, you should give it a try, making the pancake as well! Because something so simple can be such a delight!
~Aurora
Monday, July 12, 2010
Sophie Scholl
It was definitely a fantastic movie which paid homage to Sophie Scholl, who scarificed her life in order to bring to the attention of the German people that what Hitler did was not the right way to go. I'm really glad to be doing this as my english speech and hopefully I'll be able to give Sophie Scholl the credit she deserves.
Sophie Scholl died at only 22 years of age on 22 February 1943. Her last words were:
How can we expect righteousness to prevail when there is hardly anyone willing to give himself up individually to a righteous cause. Such a fine, sunny day, and I have to go, but what does my death matter, if through us thousands of people are awakened and stirred to action?
~Aurora
Camera
Hm...recently my dad asked me if I wanted to get anything because my Hong Kong uncle is coming to Australia and could buy stuff for us. I asked for a camera and now I have to decide which camera I want. I want one of those professional digital camera but I want it to look good as well. But I'm not sure what to get. Any suggestions?
But man...the money's coming out of my pocket :(
But man...the money's coming out of my pocket :(
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Day 3
Hey guys,
I must admit, I had gone onto blogspot and had read a few posts from the people I follow...and I was just about to go off with writing a post of my own. Waii...I really don't wanna do this because I'm a lazy bum but I must stick to my promise, so here I am.
I honestly didn't do much today. I feel better though, apart from the coughing fits that I get once in a while which I must quickly run downstairs to get water for because coincidently, whenever I need water, my cup is empty :(
I actually had planned to vacuum today and start reading Emma. But that all went down the drain very quickly. I woke up this morning and because I hadn't started to read Emma like I said I would yesterday, I decided that I should stay in bed for a little while and read. But, I was disturbed on my 6th page by my grandma who told me to go and cook the dumplings because she had to go out. So that plan was stuffed. Then my sister comes and tells me that her friend is coming over. And I think it's pretty rude to vacuum while a guest is over so the vacuuming idea was also tossed out the window.
So, I ended up bumming around again. But then, I decided to at least finish off some eco notes. And I was going quite well for a while, before slacking off again. And thus, ends another day of my holidays. Honestly, I know that there aren't that many days left, no matter how much I don't want to admit it. And judging by the huge amount of work that I need to get done, I really should get cracking. So I vow to do as much as I can starting from tomorrow. I'm gonna watch as much as I can today :P and then starting tomorrow I'm gonna work hardcore!
I know that this plan may not work. But I'm gonna try as hard as I can to make it work because I know that I will need all the time that I can get. Of course, I need to go out as well or else I'm gonna go crazy. But other than that, I really need to work hard.
Wish me the best of luck. And I hope you guys are enjoying your holidays! Albeit, not too much :D
~Aurora
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Day 2
What's up people!
I've kept my promise and I am once again blogging. Aiya...I'm still sick. In fact, I think I got worse over night. I coughed non-stop throughout my sleep. It must've been so annoying for my grandma who sleeps with me...apologies to her. I have a running nose, coughing non stop, sore throat and a blocked nose. It's absolutely dreadful. My grandma decided to take me to the GP once and for all to check what's wrong since I have been sick for 2 weeks now and it doesn't seem to be going away even though I've been taking medication. I apparently have a fever and a very red throat. So now I have been prescribed some medicine, which I must rant is very expensive. I mean, come on, 3 tiny little tablets which I'm suppose to take once a day, for $21! I mean, does anyone else find it strange that one measily little tablet costs $7?
But anyways, I was having a rather bad day. Had to get up to have a shower in order to go out, much to my body's dismay, even though it was nearly noon. Then had to suffer through the cold waiting for my grandma to buy some groceries. Went to the doctors, but we missed our appointment and now had to wait to try to squish in a time slot to see the GP. So we sat there for more than an hour, waiting for the doctor. My auntie also came for a little while, and she 'commented' on my hair, saying it was totally out of fashion and that my sister's hairstyles are so much more stylish. Gosh...what a bitch. Anyways it took no more than 15 minutes for us to actually see what was wrong with me. Had to wait in the cold for the bus home. The bus driver charged me $3.30 for a freaken bus fare when it was usually only $1.60, just because I didn't have my student ID. I mean, come on, I've never had to do that before, and suddenly I do. Fuck you buddy. Ergh...I ended up bawling my eyes out, much to my embarrassment. It was just so embarrassing because I only brought my mp3 and my phone out and so I had to wait for my grandma to get some change to give to the stupid bastard. I mean, how bad must that look? A full grown lady, relying on her grandma for some change. Erghhh
And so I ended up crying my eyes out at home. I know that it was a stupid thing to cry over. But I just couldn't help it. Sigh...I'm so silly.
So all in all, I have done nothing once again. I'm planning to burrow my head into Emma tonight and try to get reading because you guys have all been saying that it is good.
I hope you guys had a much better day than me.
:) Aurora
I've kept my promise and I am once again blogging. Aiya...I'm still sick. In fact, I think I got worse over night. I coughed non-stop throughout my sleep. It must've been so annoying for my grandma who sleeps with me...apologies to her. I have a running nose, coughing non stop, sore throat and a blocked nose. It's absolutely dreadful. My grandma decided to take me to the GP once and for all to check what's wrong since I have been sick for 2 weeks now and it doesn't seem to be going away even though I've been taking medication. I apparently have a fever and a very red throat. So now I have been prescribed some medicine, which I must rant is very expensive. I mean, come on, 3 tiny little tablets which I'm suppose to take once a day, for $21! I mean, does anyone else find it strange that one measily little tablet costs $7?
But anyways, I was having a rather bad day. Had to get up to have a shower in order to go out, much to my body's dismay, even though it was nearly noon. Then had to suffer through the cold waiting for my grandma to buy some groceries. Went to the doctors, but we missed our appointment and now had to wait to try to squish in a time slot to see the GP. So we sat there for more than an hour, waiting for the doctor. My auntie also came for a little while, and she 'commented' on my hair, saying it was totally out of fashion and that my sister's hairstyles are so much more stylish. Gosh...what a bitch. Anyways it took no more than 15 minutes for us to actually see what was wrong with me. Had to wait in the cold for the bus home. The bus driver charged me $3.30 for a freaken bus fare when it was usually only $1.60, just because I didn't have my student ID. I mean, come on, I've never had to do that before, and suddenly I do. Fuck you buddy. Ergh...I ended up bawling my eyes out, much to my embarrassment. It was just so embarrassing because I only brought my mp3 and my phone out and so I had to wait for my grandma to get some change to give to the stupid bastard. I mean, how bad must that look? A full grown lady, relying on her grandma for some change. Erghhh
And so I ended up crying my eyes out at home. I know that it was a stupid thing to cry over. But I just couldn't help it. Sigh...I'm so silly.
So all in all, I have done nothing once again. I'm planning to burrow my head into Emma tonight and try to get reading because you guys have all been saying that it is good.
I hope you guys had a much better day than me.
:) Aurora
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Update?
Hey,
It's the holidays and it's about time I paid a little more attention to this blog. I'm not gonna make any absurd promises, but I will try to post at least once a day.
Sigh...I'm still sick, coughing like no tomorrow. And to add to my pains, I've now been gifted with a running nose. It's a wonderful feeling...ha..can you hear the sarcasm just oozing out? It's so horrible man. My one saviour from boredom: singing, has been taken away from me because I can't sing for more than 1 line without breaking out into a cough, which would be cool if I could break out into some mad, high tempo cough-boxing, but unfortunately, I hold no such talent and so my coughs only come as a pain to me. I've actually been sick for nearly two weeks now...which is pretty bad. Hopefully I shall get better soon!
I've done nothing productive so far. All I've managed to do is fix up my English tutoring notes...which overflowed so I couldn't fix everything in a folder..so now the leftover sheets are just sitting on the floor. So much for packing up. I also managed to do some business notes, but I didn't get very far. Just thinking about all the stuff that I am putting off is so depressing. It's suppose to be a holiday, but with all the work that is piled up, it sure doesn't seem like it.
I'm gonna be positive for now (although I believe my confidence and positivity will slowly die out as the days go by) and say that if I manage to work hard and get all my work done, I can leave myself time to relax and really par-tay towards the end of the holidays before school resumes! Sounds like a plan :P
But seriously, my days so far have consisted of eating, sleeping and watching stuff on youtube. I think that's about it. Oh and reading news about korean celebrities. Keke
I'm currently listening to songs by Yiruma. Sigh...he's piano skills are just...indescribable. They're really calming and I just feel so relaxed. His music also really brings some kind of emotion out of you. I don't know about you, but when I'm in a room by myself, listening to his soft, melodious music, I sometimes get the urge to cry because it's so touching. It's really beautiful. If you haven't heard his music, you should really get off your ass and go listen to it because you are totally missing out. Actually, after this post, I'll go try and upload it as my playlist so you can listen to it as you read my posts :)
Well...what now? I really should get out of the house. Do something a little more interesting than watching korean idols on youtube. Maybe I'll go out tomorrow and rent some dvds and buy some ice cream. That would definitely be a treat. I also need to get my hair cut some time. I didn't realise until recently, but my hair has grown awfully long. And while I do like long hair, I don't think it really suits me. Pssch...as if you care right :P
I should go visit the library as well and borrow some books to read. I haven't read in a while...although, now that I think about it, I have to read Emma. Keke...I'm sure it's a very interesting book..but I can't seem to get passed the first few pages. I shall get cracking on that tonight :)
Ahh...there I go again, my coughing fit.
Alrightie, I should probably go do something now....what that something is...who know? :S I certainly don't.
It'll probably end up being youtube :D
Have a nice holidays guys...and that's for being loyal enough to actually read through this very boring post. Actually, scratch that, thanks for reading all my boring posts...I don't know why you guys still do :P
사랑해 sarang hae
keke...I love you all :)
~Aurora
It's the holidays and it's about time I paid a little more attention to this blog. I'm not gonna make any absurd promises, but I will try to post at least once a day.
Sigh...I'm still sick, coughing like no tomorrow. And to add to my pains, I've now been gifted with a running nose. It's a wonderful feeling...ha..can you hear the sarcasm just oozing out? It's so horrible man. My one saviour from boredom: singing, has been taken away from me because I can't sing for more than 1 line without breaking out into a cough, which would be cool if I could break out into some mad, high tempo cough-boxing, but unfortunately, I hold no such talent and so my coughs only come as a pain to me. I've actually been sick for nearly two weeks now...which is pretty bad. Hopefully I shall get better soon!
I've done nothing productive so far. All I've managed to do is fix up my English tutoring notes...which overflowed so I couldn't fix everything in a folder..so now the leftover sheets are just sitting on the floor. So much for packing up. I also managed to do some business notes, but I didn't get very far. Just thinking about all the stuff that I am putting off is so depressing. It's suppose to be a holiday, but with all the work that is piled up, it sure doesn't seem like it.
I'm gonna be positive for now (although I believe my confidence and positivity will slowly die out as the days go by) and say that if I manage to work hard and get all my work done, I can leave myself time to relax and really par-tay towards the end of the holidays before school resumes! Sounds like a plan :P
But seriously, my days so far have consisted of eating, sleeping and watching stuff on youtube. I think that's about it. Oh and reading news about korean celebrities. Keke
I'm currently listening to songs by Yiruma. Sigh...he's piano skills are just...indescribable. They're really calming and I just feel so relaxed. His music also really brings some kind of emotion out of you. I don't know about you, but when I'm in a room by myself, listening to his soft, melodious music, I sometimes get the urge to cry because it's so touching. It's really beautiful. If you haven't heard his music, you should really get off your ass and go listen to it because you are totally missing out. Actually, after this post, I'll go try and upload it as my playlist so you can listen to it as you read my posts :)
Well...what now? I really should get out of the house. Do something a little more interesting than watching korean idols on youtube. Maybe I'll go out tomorrow and rent some dvds and buy some ice cream. That would definitely be a treat. I also need to get my hair cut some time. I didn't realise until recently, but my hair has grown awfully long. And while I do like long hair, I don't think it really suits me. Pssch...as if you care right :P
I should go visit the library as well and borrow some books to read. I haven't read in a while...although, now that I think about it, I have to read Emma. Keke...I'm sure it's a very interesting book..but I can't seem to get passed the first few pages. I shall get cracking on that tonight :)
Ahh...there I go again, my coughing fit.
Alrightie, I should probably go do something now....what that something is...who know? :S I certainly don't.
It'll probably end up being youtube :D
Have a nice holidays guys...and that's for being loyal enough to actually read through this very boring post. Actually, scratch that, thanks for reading all my boring posts...I don't know why you guys still do :P
사랑해 sarang hae
keke...I love you all :)
~Aurora
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